Something to talk about

I really think that I need to go to sleep now. But,before I meet my comfortable comforter I would like to fabricate some words that might not be that important for you guys , It just what I felt these past few days.

Presentation
Firstly, I was pretty sure that my management presentation last thursday was bad , like seriusly bad . I am not that good in fabricating words infront of others ,writing is much much better I guess. But , at least we did it right.

Conversation
Second , talked with Rash de Audey thru skype was fantastic ! Also, skype with latiff my schoolmate and that  was amazing ! I miss this two person so much that i can't even tell . Chatting with latiff was funny and of course talking to him totally released my stress out.

Trying to write something

Currently I have been living in this world for almost eighteen years . Througout my journey of life , I have met many different kind of people. Each of them carries different kind of personalities. Some were good, and some were bad. Yahh! actually , I'm struggling to write something cause I didn't know what to say and what I'm about to tell you guys and now I think I'm a little bit annoying.

Friends

No matter how wrong things are between us . We still take a good care of each other. It's a lie if I say I am not jealous at all. To tell the truth , I am jealous. Knowing how happy you guys there,without me around. I am thinking of so many ways to tell you guys about this but I just didn't have the heart cause i didn't wanna take your happiness away.I decided to just keep it silence.In this case, it's no one's fault.It just came and we didn't  see it coming at first. If I had a chance to turn back time, I would like to go back to those days where we were being very happy together being the best friend that no one could ever separate us. I miss all those crazy time with my very bestfriend .

Something not so good

I don't know what changes things these days.Everything seems to be easily detachable.But I am glad I have this faith in God,in what He has written for me.

Sometimes I love being silence and sometimes I love being noisy.But Nowadays , Silence tend to invade me even when I'm surrounded by noises.People can't see it physically cause it is not the physical silence that I meant.It is a silence from my ownself. I am not myself from the past and I'm not myself from the future either, but I am what i am now. A girl who being silence from her ownself. People might not really understand what am I realy talking about but I believe that every human sometimes have to face this strange feeling.It is awful to be unheard and unseen. But I guess I have to be strong in every way. Because this time I'm standing alone.

An old song for an old memories

Everybody need a little time away
I heard her say, from each other
Even lovers need a holiday
Far away from each other

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say,
I just want you to stay

After all that you've been through
I will make it up to you, I promise you baby
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go
Couldn't stand to be kept away
Not for a day, from your body
Wouldn't wanna be swept away
Far away from the one that I love

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say, I'm sorry
I just want you to know
I really wanna tell you I'm sorry
I could never let you go

After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you, I promise you
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go
I can't let go

Sadness

Today we skype. Maybe for the last time.When my mind went back to those old memories , I cries myself so much quiet where nobody would ever hear . Every night and day i will pray for the best of me.I'm the girl who would smile but hides the pain inside.I'm a girl who never stop wishing and waiting for miracle to come.

I still in love with you  and I'm very sure that you didn't know about that.even when you had to leave and even you neglecting me behind I will always love you for you and keep loving you for you. Beyong time and beyond distance.

-Long distance relationship -