A very sad morning

Today, when I woke up I found myself crying without a reason. It has been awhile since I had these feelings. It's weird, very weird. as if I can't describe what feeling are these. But I know, if I woke up with tears in my eyes and one rolling down my cheek, I knew I must have been dreaming of you again. Currently, I feel so messed up. I wanna let it out so badly but one problem. I don't know what to let out. The only way to get rid of this feelings is just cry. . But Im tired of it. Like seriously sick of tears. What can I do now. I'm sorry to dissapointing you again .

I knew things aren't right and I am so true about that. You see, we are born with feelings. Feelings make you feel things like love, hate, like and dislike. Without feelings, you're not a human.so, I know how you really feel about me right now.I'm sorry again.

Talking to the Moon

It's already late now. I think I should go to bed . But I can't. I really wanna go to the beach right now and sit on the white sand under the beautiful stars . I know it such a crazy idea. But I think by doing this I could solve all my problems and It will make me calm for sure. I need to clear up these messes in my head right now. What I meant by messes is that I really miss him and this one problem that I couldn't tell. I don't wanna be here at the time being. I wanna go out of Malaysia and stay there for a couple of weeks.

Well,thanks dad for being such a very understanding father. I'm goin to Sydney for a couple of weeks and I'll be off  this tuesday.I know Life is will just getting better day by day without the sadness (: Soo, I'll learnt lots of things  for now. I think I should sleep now and try to forget everything . and now I'm listening to Bruno Mars talking to the moon . And just so you know this song made me feel like crying so much .

Where is the good in goodbye?

Today, I don't know why but it just that I feel like very very lonely day compared to other days. It's a very sad day. Its just a simple and plain sad day. I know today everybody especially my friends will begin their new chapter.There’s some great and exciting stuff about this but for today I am feeling like a sentimental old fool saying goodbye to some really good times and a relationship that was the longest and strongest of my life

Why they have to said goodbye. But I know all good things come to an end for a reason. It’s the right time for us to go our separate ways.  think its human nature though . My friends were so nice to me and it was too hard for me to tell goodbye.I was so sad cause we have to separate each others. I miss them a lot . Eventhough I know that my friends will meet their new friends and it really made me even sadder as i really scared that they will one day totally forget about me.Please forget me not.I'm lying if I say I'm not crying now. So, I just wanna say Good Bye to those who going into matriks , uni or even college in this month. I Love you like hell!

Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together?  I guess that wouldn't work.  Someone would leave.  Someone always leaves.  Then we would have to say good-bye.  I hate good-byes.  I know what I need.  I need more hellos

To a very best friend

We all have that one person whom we think about from time to time. It's either friends or our beloved . Just like me. I always think about one of my best friend. Sometimes we bond with the person over similarities and sometimes the bond of friendship are formed over time. This person that i always think about is one of my highschool friends. I became friends with him when i was 14. It was easy for me to talk with him because we didn't really know each other very well at that time .He was an ear to listen to me and a shoulder for me to lean on . He always give the best advices about something to me and never get tired of listening some of my problems. But now, he's going into university and of course our relationship will end up just like that. so, if you do read this one day, always remember that i will always pray for your success and be a very great lawyer one day .

I did it !

Alhamdulillah. I passed my JPJ test today . What a relieve. I just can't believe that I passed the test in the first round . I'm so glad. Thanks God for giving this to me. I arrived at the driving center about 10.00 and was shocked that so many people were there already. There were people from 1st session that which started at 8.00 and I was in the 2nd session which will start around at 11.00. I got number 30 which means more waiting. So you can imagine waiting for my turn was like a long day.

I sat there and observed how people drive the car, whether they passed or failed. Some people were driven back by the JPJ tester during the road test(section 3) and that means : FAIL. Sitting there watching them only made me more and more nervous. I was thinking :" What if I got a crappy car? What if I fail? No way. I can't fail.

Finally! The time has come! My number was called for section 2 and I started walking slowly towards the car. I told myself JUST DO IT! I went slow and steady all the way and passed! I'm so happy! Now that I have passed the section 2, there is only section 3 left.

After another long wait, its finally my turn for the road test already. I can't wait to get it done already. I'm tired of waiting, I don't care whether I will pass or fail.

I got into the car, greet the officer and did all the necessary things that could helped me to get points. That officer did not said anything at first but showed his true colours after I drove out from the driving center. He was frequently yelling and scolding at me, trying to make me nervous. Well, you can't expect me to be completely calm as it was the first time I'm driving alone. Haha! Believe me

I was shocked almost to death after all the scolding. He's so mean! I thought I had failed the test but when he handed me the paper, OMG! 17/20! I passed!Alhamdulillah.

Well, Thank you so much to all my friend who never get tired of giving me advices and wishing me good luck. Especially for Fatin and Juwairiah for telling me the 6 things to do before start the driving and for Anah , nik and Mirash for wishing me good luck and lastly for the very Superb Latiff Idham sbb praying for me to pass the test also for giving me support.Thank You so much friends.I Love you and will always do.

What a Wonderful People

Just Me


I used to be someone who hated hurting people's feelings but people ended up hurting mine. Now I'm the other way round. I used to hate when my phone started ringing and bugging my life. But I get so upset now when it does not gives out sounds at all. I used to love having such a beautiful life. I tend to hate my life now when too much problems came up. I used to be quite strong in handling tears. Now tears overcome me. I used to just hate bad people's evil deeds. Now, I'm having the hatred towards human. Isn't it very unhealthy? I just realized that now.

To the One I've been really close to


I am sorry if I'm such a disappointment to you. Sometimes things are just not meant to be like how you wanted. Do keep in mind that I will love you as we are friends, close friends. Let's get close like last time. I really don't wanna lose you cause you know, life means nothing when you don't have friends. I don't wanna say much cause I've said it lots of times before this. Are we cool? Please say yes, I really wish for that.



Dear My Girlies

Thank you so much for helping me out a lot . When it comes to trouble , I always go and refer to you . Sometimes I don't even tell you things but you figured it out all by yourselves. I guess you know me quite well. Thanks for the patience while you're with me. You know I love you. Bestfriends for life. Without you , there's no life . Thanks a lot to Dila,fanah,fiqah,azie,nik,che nor .

Wanted !

When I was in Oman, My treat a couple of times a week is going to Costa Coffee. I either have a skinny latte and a Tuna sandwich or a skinny latte with a packet of Tyrell Crisps or sometimes I have a Double Choclate Milk shake with Pain Au De Choclate (my favourite) . I usually get them and shared with my little brother.

Also,the Costa Hot choclate was very nice with cream and marsmallows . omg ! I can't forget all the time I had spent at the Costa Coffee . But why ?? Why Malaysia don't have this costa coffee!

Well , Since there were no Costa Coffee in Malaysia , I used to spent my time in starbucks and also sometimes in Coffee Bean orrr My daddy always brought me to Dome when he feels like having the very nice Affogato, The italian espresso.But currently I feel like it was also nice having a fishcracker fishfillet in chilis :)

COSTA :)