For someone in the future.
I may be hard to understand but I can offer you a heart
that might sincerely love you , Insya Allah.
A jealousy may have in this heart and it might be so high
even higher than the highest building in this world ,
but I may have comfort in you if you could love me
for being perfectly imperfect.

Dear Allah SWT ,
Fill this heart with happiness
Replace this loneliness with smiles
Shower this empty self with blessing
Protect this heart from breaking into pieces
And always show this heart the right path.

Everyday I had to find new hopes with stronger faith.
This is the toughest 5 months this heart had gone through
I sang a happy song that saddened myself
I smiled for the most painful reason
I hate to see myself crying when I though that Im stronger enough
I am now walking alone on this world of mine.