Saturday, 22 December 2012


I get so protective towards my heart lately
I realize my journey was and never be easy
I tend to be silent even when i'm surrounded by noises
It comfort me much everytime when I'm alone

" Sometimes you have to be apart with someone you really love,
  but it doesn't mean you love them any less,
  infact you'll love them even more " 

Friday, 31 August 2012

For someone in the future.
I may be hard to understand but I can offer you a heart
that might sincerely love you , Insya Allah.
A jealousy may have in this heart and it might be so high
even higher than the highest building in this world ,
but I may have comfort in you if you could love me
for being perfectly imperfect.

Sunday, 26 August 2012

Dear Allah SWT ,
Fill this heart with happiness
Replace this loneliness with smiles
Shower this empty self with blessing
Protect this heart from breaking into pieces
And always show this heart the right path.

Thursday, 23 August 2012

Everyday I had to find new hopes with stronger faith.
This is the toughest 5 months this heart had gone through
I sang a happy song that saddened myself
I smiled for the most painful reason
I hate to see myself crying when I though that Im stronger enough
I am now walking alone on this world of mine.

Sunday, 15 July 2012


Sacrifice , Effort , Honesty is needed in order to get something.
But we can't control everything when it is not only us who'll decide.
So let us pray for our best in everything and anything in our life.


I am used to wish you good night and tell you stories.
But , when you move apart slowly , I got scared .
You should know how crazy I have become when u dissapear for so many days.
My eyes are red and swallen just because of all the tears I had for you.
I was suffering and I think I still am.


This is the first place I want to go so badly.
My first wishes is to spent my time here.
It's Venice Italy.Located in northen Italy.
Venice has been named one of the most romantic cites in all of Europe.

Saturday, 14 July 2012


Let's just wait untill the God judge
You are the winner this time
Cause I have wasted my tears so much
I thought I was something
Cause you were my everything
I was actually nothing
Cause I am not your anything.
I know you're laughing happily now
Having such a great camping
With someone you loved so much.
I hope you enjoy all your time there
Without me around.


I'll make sure I tell you everything before Ramandhan
And I think I should get everyhting clear.
Well, today life of mine is extremely bored.
But meeting up with my friends and 
we went to cg Azma's house chilled me up a lil bit.
I love kids so much
Looking them makes me calm and happy inside and out.
At night, I'm having a conversation with Aiman.
He's coming home and I'll promise to fetch him at klia.
can't imagine how awkward it will be.
But I'm sure you'll be super duper malu with me.
Can't wait cause I have so much to ask you 
since the day you went away.
Still remember all the memories we had together.
chatting till midnight sharing knowledge together
And the most important part was you 
always remind me to be a good muslim
and to take a good care of myself :)

Friday, 13 July 2012


If you love someone
Then set them free
If they're come back they're yours
If they don't they never were.
Dear love,
I hope you can let me free
So that, you'll hurt me less
But don't worry cause
I'll be back when I'm ready.
That's my promise to you.


Sadness invades me again.
Seems like I don't have the strength to tell you the truth
But I'll try as hard as I can to tell you everything.
Everywhere I go
No matter what I do
I just can't get you out of my mind.
It annoys me so much
And I hate that cause I keep thinking
How silly I am 

Thursday, 12 July 2012


How could you do this to me
How could you be so heartless
It hurts me so much
To pretend that everything was okay
While it was not okay at all
If you could ever read my mind
I'm sure you'll be crying for the whole of your life
I act like I don't care
But deep inside , it hurts much.
I'm so speechless .

Wednesday, 11 July 2012


Mind your words
Cause you never know how sensitive I am
I don't think I want this anymore.
You're seeing someone else
Without me knowing at the first place.
You're such a good pretender.
Thanks for keeping that as a secret of yours.
Thanks for hurting me so badly.
Thanks for all the kindness that you keep showing me.
Thank you so much.

Sunday, 8 July 2012


You should know that
everytime I take a look of your pictures,
I cried to myself so hard.
Not because it made me sad,
But because it made me so happy.
It reminded me that you're the best thing
that's ever happened to me.


People wouldn't understand and
I don't feel the needed to explain,
simply because in my heart how real it was.
When I think of you I can't help smiling
knowing that you've completed me somehow.


There's so much I want to say to you,
but I'm not sure where I should begin.
I'll think about you everyday.
Part of me is scared that there will come a time
when you don't feel the same way,
that you'll somehow forget about what we shared.


Everytime we fought I hated myself for it.
Somehow,even though we loved each other,
we lost that magical bond that kept us together.

Friday, 6 July 2012


My instinct is always right.
And I do believe with it.
I know she's home.
And I know how happy and how glad you are.
Sometimes I really feel like letting you go but
I have this one thing that make it so hard to happen.

Actually I couldn't stand with it anymore.
But I was so scared to move on.
So, I do really hope that,
You'll be the first one to move on.

Seriously it makes me feel sick.
I'm so sick with tears with sadness and
I'm so sick of being with you because I love you so much.
So I hope that you'll be happy in the future
Don't worry about me cause I'll be fine.

Thursday, 5 July 2012


In our time together,
You claimed a special place in my heart
One I'll carry with me forever and that no one can ever replace.
You're kind and honest, but more than that,
You're the first man I ever truly loved.
And no matter what future brings,
You always will be,
And I know that my life is better for it.
I Love you so much.


Part of me wishes that you were here with me
So I could do this in person
But we both  know that's impossible.
So here I am,
Groping for words with tears on my cheeks and hoping that
You'll somehow forgive me for all my bad things that I have done.

Everyday and night,
I'll be trying to find out where you are and what you do.
I pray every night that you'll make it home safely and I always will.
I'll be so worried everytime you stay up late just to finish up your work.
How I wish I could always be by your side
So that you'll never get lonely.
I miss you so much,Love.


I couldn't sleep after that
I just kept thinking about whether my lie to mum was right or wrong
By the time morning light had flooded my room
I realised I had made a mistake
I should have just told her the truth last night
And now I am in trouble again


I know It's my fault
I am sorry for raising my voice on the phone this morning.
I feel so bad but I have no strength to apologize.
I have been thinking of you this one whole day
Why don't you paid me a call
I miss you so much
I really hope you know that.

Monday, 2 July 2012


It will be the most cutest and the most memorable moment for me.
We had a very long conversation.
And the best part was I feel so closed to you.
We talks so much about our life.
And just so you know
I love you for every single words that came out from your mouth.
I love to listen on every story of yours.
I love to accept all the advices you gave me.
And the most important is I Love you for being yourself.


I had tears on my eyes but I did not cry.
I used to be quiet strong in handling tears,
Now tears seems to overcome me.
How I wish I could ask you this one question.
But I was totally √°fraid that your answer might hurt me.
I really want to tell you how i feel but im just scared.
So, I just keep the question aside and just follow the flow.

Sunday, 1 July 2012


Born from a good family background but very humble,
down to earth man.
He never burdened anyone.
He is the man who works very hard to get what he wants.
He is very ambitious .
He doesn't believe in giving up and to him,
everyhting is possible if you do it with all your heart.
A soft-spoken man.
As slowly time passed by,
I started to see his  great personalities he has in him.
I feel blessed and lucky to meet him in my life.
Kindness,patience,sincerity, honesty and HARDWORKING
defined him  well that those are the reason,
I respected him so much.
I really look up to him ,
as he is one of the biggest influence in my life :)
I hope this feeling of mine will last forever.
Amin :)

Saturday, 30 June 2012


You're so priceless that I couldn't afford to lose you ,
I'm scared to let out this feeling of mine,
So everyday, I will pray to Allah.
And I will mention your name in every single of my prayers.
That was the only way for me to prove my love towards you :(

Friday, 22 June 2012


Somewhere between all our laughs, long talks,
stupid little fights and all our jokes,
I feel in love. That is how my love get started.
Not weeks ago, but months ago.
But still, I don't have the strength to tell you the truth.
So I keep it safe in my heart.

Thursday, 21 June 2012


This guy is so specially different from others.
He has this awesome sides of him that really caught me heart.
He has been an amazing friend, a brother, a teacher,
a listener and an advicer in my life.
He has always been there when ever I need help.
I really appreciate his present in my life.

Wednesday, 13 June 2012


It hurts me so much whenever you talks about you and her.
Obviously it brought me to tears but no one cares.
I had nightmares about all this.
It was my fault stalks everything about you.
And now misery seems to invade my life.
I stayed up until late night just because I wanted to know,
It is something good or bad

Thursday, 24 May 2012


I got upset so easily when you were away.
I got worried and sad everytime you didn't reply my text.
Late night calls from you made my day better.
I Love the fact that I feel so comfortable telling you things about me.
But deep inside my heart I have this strange feeling about you
And I will hate myself so much if it was true.

Sunday, 12 February 2012

Newwie Hommie

Today me with parents went to Enstek to see the progression of our new house.Well , it was pretty nice but still it is on renovation. It has been for quiet sometime . I really can't wait to move in but that would take another months. Quiet disappointing . Sorry if the picture is small and  I just took it on one side.I'll take a clearer picture next time 

Saturday, 11 February 2012


Kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan Matahari
Dia datangkan Petir dan Kilat
Kita tertanya-tanya kemana hilangnya Matahari
Rupa-rupanya Allah berikan kita Pelangi.

No matter what happens , let us live our life to the fullest :)

Wednesday, 8 February 2012


Today, as all my classes finished.
I drove my car back to the home.
Quiz was okay,but there's some question 
that turned me blur.
With this senggugut thing I currently suffered.
How I wish I could sleep now
but I have to teman my mom to go to Adreesya boutique.
Which actually I am the one who eager to go there.

No exciting stories to tell you guys.
But I just really hope that he somehow have the same feeling,
like how I'm feeling towards him.
For that to happen,
Everyday , I'll pray for that.
Don't worry cause you are one of the prayers that I said everyday.

Well, now I realize that my grammar is getting worst.

                                                                                                       - I.S -


It's been ages since my last update.
Just so you know, i'm quiet busy these days.
Today was a pretty nice day for me.
Well, I never thought that i will meet him today.I feel blessed.
On that moment,
that one moment when I'm reading what in your eyes ,
And your smile hide loads of pain , that makes my tears rolling down my cheek.
I respect and adore you,
On how you surviving yourself alone in this world.
It was hard for me at first to hide this feeling, It was so hard that no one could imagine.
My heart somehow breaks a little everytime I see you.
Not everyone understands everything
that I've been tryin to explain.
But it doesn't matter at all.
I'm so greatful to know you,

                                                                                                                - I. S -

Thursday, 12 January 2012

One of the past

It has been ages since our last conversation.
I still remember how caring you are while I was alone in Malaysia.
How worried you are while my parents away.

I still remember,everyday you'll remind me of being a good muslim.
I still remember,everyday you'll shine my dark times.
I still remember,everyday you'll keep telling me stories about Mesir.
I still remember,everyday you'll listen to every problems of mine

I was form 3 at that time when we share so many things together.
I'm so thankful that we get to know each other.

When you were in Mesir
I was so touched that you were still make sure that I was okay here.
You text me just to give me support for my exam tomorrow.
You text me just to let me know about every pmr seminar.
Even you were in Mesir you were still help me with so many things
cause you were being so worried about my lonely life.
Thank you so much Abang Aiman.

You once said that one day you'll take me as your 'halal'one .
And I still remember at that time when something had happened.
And sadness tend to invade me.
I was totally alone at that time without ibu and ayah and abang around,
I wrote a very long letter to you telling how sad I am at that time.
Then, I went to your house and put that letter in your postbox.
You now,I felt so calm after that .

We were so closed each other,
Until one day
When I got my spm result and it was not that good.
You kept asking me about my result but i never tell.
I know how angry you are at that time but I'm sorry
I was in a total stress with my result

After that incident,
I deactivate my facebook profile
we never talk
we never text
until today.
Thanks for still being like how you were before :)

Specially for you,

kalau suatu hari nanti terbukak blog ni dimana ianya sangatlah mustahil untuk berlaku.terima kasih sangat ye. I will never forget all the things you have done for me.Thanks for treating me so nice and you know You were so good that I was so sad whenever it reminds me on you. Terima kasih ye kerana bagi peluang jadikan kau sebagai abang angkat aku :) Thank you so much :) Belajar medic elok2 kat mesir tu.tak lama lagi kita jumpa insyaAllah :)